I haven’t posted in a while. For a few different reasons.
First I’ve felt like I’m getting a bit repetitive and I wasn’t really happy with my last post. I was trying to latch on to a social trend and mesh two idea’s together. I don’t feel like it really worked, that it came off as exactly that. Two mashed up ideas that, seemed to attempt to capitalize on circumstance.
Needless to say I didn’t really like it and I didn’t feel very proud of it and got discouraged.
Second, I see a lot of opportunity and potential in it. I’m impatient and have only been doing this for a few months. So realistically I know my expectations are considerably higher than where I’m at.
It’s a total mind freak. My gut says keep going, keep doing and it will all come together. My brain likes to test it’s own fortitude, will, determination and discipline on the matter. Despite knowing that. I’m still finding myself frustrated.
Third, I put a lot of pressure on myself, have high expectations and I’m not where I want or thought I would be at this point in my life.
Like so many other people.
I needed to take a step back. Reevaluate the content, my intentions and the reality of the situation. A general, self evaluation of the reason that I started this in the first place.
I know that in the grand scheme of things I am not the only one deeply attached to leveling up in life and achieving success. I know that each of these moments of frustration, angst, confusion, anger and stress. Is essentially the “Boss” you have to beat, to complete each level throughout your favorite video game.
You can’t skip steps and you have to work through the adversity in order to learn what to do next. The overall payoff is the acquisition of new skills, capabilities and elevated thought patterns.
Yet I find myself, I’m sure like some of you out there. Trying to find a way to speed up the process. I really don’t think it’s possible. I think what really needs to happen at least for me. Is that I have to better regulate my emotional investment.
The weight of manufactured stress is comparable to being stuck under a land slide. You’re pinned, smothered, you don’t know what to do and it feels like the rescue team is never coming.
You’ve been here before, in much worse circumstance and you’ve seen the other side. You’ve made it through and been better for it. Years from now you’ll look back at this moment and think man I could have handled it better. Ultimately knowing you had to go through it the way you did, to get where your at right now.