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Beaten and Broken, Clawing my way back to Me.

I’m a regular guy that was motivated by circumstance to change my life style.  Sometimes it seems that the odds are completely against you and the results are insurmountable. That tension, that stress, that uneasiness can be your light.  It can be the motivator, the catalyst for great change.  So embrace the struggle, don’t let it take you down.

About a month after my divorce, I was scheduled to have my defibrillator upgraded.  So by March of 2016.  I was stressed out, on my own, stuck to the confines of my house and lonely beyond belief.

After a month of wallowing in self pity.  I figured it was time to put my big boy pants on and see about getting back into the dating pool.  First I had to transform my body into something much more appealing to the opposite sex.

As awesome as it is to be partially bionic.  My new internal wiring comes with its own obstacles.  Too much weight over my chest or shoulders, could potentially break those life saving leads.

The X-Rays are freaking awesome though.  If I can get one next time I go for a check up, I’ll post it.  The leads dangling into my meat pump, surrounded by that white glow of bone looks bad ass.

Any way after that first month of recovery, I started to use my stationary bike.  Cardio is a great jumping off point, but I’m a bit of a meat head and I’m not satisfied if I can’t lift, throw or carry heavy things.

Not being able to do any of that.  I was forced to find new ways, healthy ways, to work on my physique.  So the stationary bike was it for a month and a half.  After that I stupidly tried to do arm curls with 20 lb dumbbells.  I didn’t break or disturb anything but damn it hurt. Free weights were out of the question for now.

So while I road that bike I racked my brain to figure out how I could build muscle, protect my sore and recuperating left shoulder/upper chest, and lose weight at the same time.  The answer was simple.  Body weight.  I can throw my own weight around, without overloading one specific muscle.  So I began looking into plyometrics and body weight exercises.

Once I found a solid 30 minute routine I stuck with that for the next 2 months.  Riding the bike for half an hour a day.  Then on Monday, Wednesday and Friday, incorporating that body weight routine.

That mixture of cardio and strength development shed the pounds fast.  Coming out of surgery I was 230 lbs.  By the end of that summer I was at 210 lbs.  By Christmas I was at an even 200 lbs, by then I had added exercises involving those 20 lb dumbbells.

All told it took me about 5 months to get strong, confident and in the kind of shape that had women taking a second look, or giving out a smile as we passed on the street.

Hopefully my experiences can be motivation for you to take the reins of change and steer that mutha in the direction you want. Don’t wait until your face down in the mud like I did.



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